It has begun

Today was awful.

Today being awful started on Sunday. I went to a party with some friends *non-lifestyle, vanilla* and when He asked me what I had done over the weekend, I told him. I told him the truth, the honest truth. I still got in trouble. He says that I'm not allowed to do anything without his approval. That was not what I understood. I understood that I could not be around lifestyle-type people anymore, and I wasn't. I don't understand why I got in trouble for going out with ordinary friends. So now I just tell him every move I make, and until further notice, he will get to know every time I do anything.

 "Sir, I'm sorry but I would rather not tell you when I'm going to the bathroom . . . "

Many other things happened today that sucked, but they are all work related nonsense that isn't worth typing.

On a brighter note, He told me that I was doing well today. He never says anything positive so I just about lost it when He said that. And by "said that", I mean texted that. It was still the best part of the day.


I have to buy a book & do a "book report" for him. I need money to buy the book. I don't think he understands that I have no means of buying things off of the internet since I no longer have a credit card. . .


Ugh. . .  This is so much harder than just being fucked and beaten. I would do anything to just be fucked and beaten right now. Complete peace.



XOXO
K

To Learn to Serve

       I am beginning my training to be a sub. I have had a few Doms before, but this one has told me that they're all wrong. They just wanted me around so that they could fuck me and beat me. Maybe that's true, but it's what I like. He's telling me that the first thing I need to do is learn to serve. I suppose he's right, that's a very important attribute for a sub to have. So now I work in the store that he owns with his wife/slave. I'm no longer allowed to speak to any other Doms or subs, except for the ones he chooses to surround me with, He doesn't want me being given anymore bad information.

     

        He's told me I need to learn protocol...... Project for the week.



XOXO
K